My mind is numb. It's been like that since a few days... All I can think about is "You". Deep regret fills my heart and my tears fill my eyes. I read our chat history right from the time I said the first Hello to the time you said, "I wish we could be friends forever" over and over again. The smile slowly disappears as I read about your denial... about your engagement...! Finally, there is no more to read. With a heavy heart, I wonder if things could have been different had I not fallen in love with you? There is only a certain amount of pressure that a human brain can handle post which, it breaks down leaving you mentally unstable, permanently disturbed and finally a nervous breakdown.
I ponder, can I ever love anyone so much that it's no longer a pleasure? People say, love is a wonderful feeling and that I am lucky to have loved you. But is that theory real? Why am I so bitter, why am I so lonely, why do I feel as is there is a void in me somewhere... a void which is pulling in my present and making me live in the past.
'Sugar', will I ever be able to lead a normal life? Will I able to love someone ever again? Or will I just compromise and stop living?
I ponder, can I ever love anyone so much that it's no longer a pleasure? People say, love is a wonderful feeling and that I am lucky to have loved you. But is that theory real? Why am I so bitter, why am I so lonely, why do I feel as is there is a void in me somewhere... a void which is pulling in my present and making me live in the past.
'Sugar', will I ever be able to lead a normal life? Will I able to love someone ever again? Or will I just compromise and stop living?
