My mind is numb. It's been like that since a few days... All I can think about is "You". Deep regret fills my heart and my tears fill my eyes. I read our chat history right from the time I said the first Hello to the time you said, "I wish we could be friends forever" over and over again. The smile slowly disappears as I read about your denial... about your engagement...! Finally, there is no more to read. With a heavy heart, I wonder if things could have been different had I not fallen in love with you? There is only a certain amount of pressure that a human brain can handle post which, it breaks down leaving you mentally unstable, permanently disturbed and finally a nervous breakdown.
I ponder, can I ever love anyone so much that it's no longer a pleasure? People say, love is a wonderful feeling and that I am lucky to have loved you. But is that theory real? Why am I so bitter, why am I so lonely, why do I feel as is there is a void in me somewhere... a void which is pulling in my present and making me live in the past.
'Sugar', will I ever be able to lead a normal life? Will I able to love someone ever again? Or will I just compromise and stop living?
I ponder, can I ever love anyone so much that it's no longer a pleasure? People say, love is a wonderful feeling and that I am lucky to have loved you. But is that theory real? Why am I so bitter, why am I so lonely, why do I feel as is there is a void in me somewhere... a void which is pulling in my present and making me live in the past.
'Sugar', will I ever be able to lead a normal life? Will I able to love someone ever again? Or will I just compromise and stop living?
Nice one Jeet
ReplyDeleteWe never stop loving someone we just stop showing to other and ourself.
But in heart we always love that person whole life.
i know its easier said than done, but agar sab mil jaaye toh life can get boring, there should be somethings that u don't get, that which is illusive.... huggss...
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